Oh you

There is a beautiful man. He thinks I'm pretty. I don't care that he's a bit older than me, I seem to like them that way. I had a art rebirth in the back of his truck when I was super high one day. Oh man did it make my heart sing. So I told him I would come and draw in the back of it. Today was that glorious day. However this did not get archived. Instead we went for a glorious walk, walk until our feet hurt and then played on the playground and in the rocks. I had a dream about him the other night. Tonight I told him. He had one too. Oh my god did my heart just fall out of my butt? I can't believe I'm this excited. I hope something goes from here

GTFO

Got the best possible place to do community service. I get to sit around sometimes and do nothing and still get the hours. I also enjoy that I am getting into my culture. I have always wanted this and now it is happening. I wish that mother fucker didn't charge me for breaking into his damn house. I mean I had a fucking key and I wasn't told I couldn't go to his house. Fuck this shit. 10 hours down 15 to go. 2 sessions down 4 more to go and 1 little poster and I'm good to GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!

music vs reading

Downloaded all the Beck I could find...so good. I love music! Beck and radiohead...they're an alright pair haha. The first time I downloaded the fucking radiohead shit it was nothing! I was damn pissed. Almost done my awesome book and going to start another in I'm guessing a day or maybe two.

music in the making

I love to sit and listen to the music I have been missing. Finding something that gets your heart racing fast and just loving every moment feels so good. I love finding new shit that just makes you scream. Music is such a good pass time that I don't know why people don't do it.

the longest day

sometimes being in a house that you can't leave is a good thing. Spending a couple of days just chilling, nobody to talk to, reading, snoozing...it's all good. Relaxation needs to occur at some point. on the other hand having no damn food in that house just fucking sucks. Like man, they don't even have bread! a basic necessity and it's gone. Just the left overs from last night and since that's a nice slab of dead cow I won't go near it. Gives me the creepy crawlies just thinking about it. Well the old lady said she'd be gone over night so she better get back before the old man tries to feed me some more dead cow, only this time it's the dead cow that's been put through a blender...mmm.

Not my cup of tea

I have so much shit going on these days I need a fucking binder so that I can keep it all together. Never wanted to have a life like this, that's why I chose the hippie road. Fucking people though man always trying to make you conform. As soon as I'm fixed I'll get back on the road. Fucking shit's to hectic. Don't understand why people want to live this way, always on the rush. No thank you. How about a new meadow. Always on the hoots. Haha! I like it, I'll make a shirt saying it. yeah...good shit.

live

So I think this is how I will start my new life.
I cut off all my dreads and now I look like a mother fucking Buddha, it's all good though
since I'm all in to that shit and shit. :)
I'm going to start loving life again just for the sake of loving life
and not dying. NOT dying is defiantly a good thing.
I think happiness will come to me, they say it comes to those who wait and fuck
I've been waiting a long ass time.
I'm pretty much stoked for tomorrow.
It's just another day.

happy fathers day

Papa.
on days such as these
we scrounge for things
to give a piece of ourselves
to the ones we love
i have found no perfect thing
in a store for you
for you I must show my soul
you are the world
my words are almost close enough

DUDE

So yesterday me and Elise were sitting and jamming in Central park when this ginger dude came and sat down with us and started talking to us. His name my friends was Collin and he had shit tons of freckles haha. Well anyways he's from BC and he's a welder. Well he may have come to your house to sell you home security systems because he's that rad and sells that shit.

"THAT SMELLS LIKE A BLUNT"

Wow

He hugged me today :). After a great conversation he took me and gave me the greatest hug on the planet. Just friends is a death sentence but I'll take it. I would rather him be there and know that my mind is open than to not have that at all. He makes my insides sing and hurt and flutter.

Fairy

Great plans come at great times.

Me+Fairy=great trip

We will write to the richest man in Spain telling him how great his country is, how we love tomatoes and how we want to smoke a shit ton of weed. Plan goes right we will go to Spain and live in a shitty ass boat house and smoke shit tons of weed while eating shit tons of tomatoes.

adoration

The boy at the counter
his beauty catches my eye
I have never seen simplicity
lack any trait
who are you she asked
He replied with
I'm just a figment
a figment?
of beauty, creativity, happiness,
simplicity
I am all these things
you my girl must choose
what do you believe

HAHA! found out I've been spelling legit wrong for a long ass time! :)
by the way...I rule

MOTHER FUCKING RIGHTS!!!

I GOT MY FUCKING CAMERA ALL WORKING AND SHIT! FUCK I'M EXCITED! YOU
PROBABLY CAN'T TELL BY THE CAPS LOCKS BUT I'M FUCKING STOKED! GONNA FUCK SHIT UP! TAKE
ALL THE MOTHER FUCKING PICTURES IN THE WORLD.

fucking addicts

Little fucking want to be addicts.

They sit and complain about the fact all their drugs are gone, say their feending and get all sad
because they're not high. All reality here they did drugs for maybe two days straight not even. One pill? seriously. JUST ONE! I don't even know how they feel anything off that I need like 3 at least but this isn't about me. This is to all those little fuckers that think their drug problem is going to far. LET GO OF THE NEEDLE! good advice. And maybe smile for fuck sakes.

say that ten times fast

too much ipod for music to too much music for ipod

Feeling

"It must've been very hard
To have lived and never learnt
To be content with who you are
We all want the same things don't we
To find the one who opens channels to our hearts
A path you never found upon your own.

Forever can be...
Something to believe in...
But this was one of those times

So you dug deep down inside yourself
You revealed an old man
So pained to be what makes you who you are
We all want you to see the you we see
The one that carries the worlds tragedies alone
The cross you choose to bear upon your own.

Forever can be...
Something to bleed for...
And this is one of those times, for those you left behind.

Save the world so you don't have to save yourself.
You save the world so you don't have to look at yourself.
And fill the void left inside your fragile hearts.
Those haunted images never left you alone........

Forever can be...
Something to believe in...
This was one of those times"

I love finding those songs that just make you feel alive.

the rain here

Rain makes me sad and tired.

his beauty burns

and at night before you sleep the words rush to you.
Not tired at all but how you sleep.
They call this depression and I think it's bull shit but
I'll take the meds to calm them down.
I probably do need help.

I'm in love with this man
oh how he's hurting my head
But I can't explain how my insides sing
His beauty is oh so great
as his words burn through and through
oh how does he fuck with you
spit in my face
and yes I will come back
because I'm broken
and somehow I can only live
with pain

Lunch anyone

Mom "Do you know what the D in D Day stands for?"

Jesse- "Dirka."

"A bit of moisture can sometimes help"

Miss you

Freckles spread out along a great canvas
a smile across the beaming face
inside there is a deep greatness
inside is where we will all out live the cold
For the hear is the heat source
and in this one it never runs out
my friend, there is always that louder voice
saying it's time to give up
But remember the one
softer and more delicate that's telling you
you are far from the finish line.

June

Oh and you will wake up to a cloudy sky. You will lay there and think oh what a silly day for rain
a whole weekend planned of fun. Then you get up. You brush your teeth and wash your face. All ready for the day. Put your pants on one at a time and then you stand. Standing to figure out what comes next... SNOW. You look out the window and there is snow falling from the sky. You think for a second. How long did I sleep. Is it still June? Everything points to yes it's still June and that's right it's snowing. You know you jinxed it because yesterday you said it wouldn't snow. Well what do you know you live in Medicine Hat and that kind of shit happens all the time.

Merry Christmas everyone :)

Friday

"So baby could you do me a favor
fall off of the earth and I'll see ya later"

Rained all day in this city. The sky was grey all day, once I saw them clouds moving a bit with some clouds looking a bit blue but not much. What a silly thing to happen on a weekend when the city actually has something to do.

I know ecstasy is happening tomorrow kids will be petting everything hahaha. I think it's getting hard for me to get over it. Last night I had a dream where my mom was dealing it hahaha. I'm probably feending a bit.

Well not much else to say for the day. Well the new Volta CD leaked and well I had a great day listening to it and breaking it in. I'm so excited for the CD to come out. :)

I love loud music. Sitting with good people. Good conversation. And a good pencil. My day was wonderful.

Hoping tomorrow will be just as eventful.